Monamie's Murmuring Heart. A Broken Heart's Poem

                                      hopin' i could feel those arms again...


"We said we're going to hold each other’s hand up to year 3000 with a smile in our hearts and joy in our laughs."

Now the reality woke me up....

I am not like those other girl surrounding you or even those who I wish isn't beside you having those long skinny legs and even those alluring sexy body and mostly that angelic face admired by many. I cannot even flip my hair just like the old days, or wear that true smile I had once on my face but there is one thing I know they do not have for you, it's my undying love and it's true.

I thought I was the only one who could put smile on your face, but as days, goes by I felt I made mistakes. I concluded ahead. I just wished everything would be back, and travel once again. Sadly, I asked that thing a year ago and until now stars seem like deaf hearing my murmurs. I can still remember those chatting moments, and I bet you never know how my heart wore a smile every time you say, “napatawa mo naman ako dun.” Those are the moments I truly treasured aside from the moment I saw stars on your eyes, right in front of my face. Moments hard for me to erase and made me cry every time I remembered.

Yes, I can just throw this thing away, from the very first time I felt your cold heart. When that time comes and your attention were never mine, when your laugh are seldom heard by this heart of mine, and when that shining little thing in your eyes are never seen by this naked eyes. I can hide over the ocean or lost myself right on that mountain, or just look for a place where I can put all the blame and pain. But I choose to fought for this relationship we had and even shared vows that it will be forever.

I wanted to say I hate you but instead I always told you how much I loved you.

My heart still beats your name every second, every minute, every day…

And still hoping for that presence you had for me back those days…

Coz I need to feel you’re love just we were before, a couple of months we’ve met…

“Those days with you are the best days of my life.. ‘coz I felt I was loved unconditionally and truthfully with all your heart…until they came and took you away far from me. So far, I couldn’t reach you with my love…”

I wanted to blame everything, sometimes even Him. Why would he have to take those things away from me? Now it is hard for me to become happy coz I felt I’m not that lovable lady you’ve met which affects what your heart feel for me.

“ I can give you you’re freedom if you want, if that what makes you happy. I won’t be that selfish girl you’ve known before because with your love I did grow.” – that is what I thought.. ‘coz you can never closed your door to those lovely girls you’ve met over the web.

It would be painful for me to accept you’re gone, but if that would make you happy I’ll deal with it. I just wished you realized my worth, even though I do not look like a diamond as they were.

“please took this broken-heart away from me, so my eyes wouldn’t cry even a single tear and this chest of mine to breathe easy like nothing’s goin’ on painfully.”


- Monamie